I haven't been very active online because I have made a lot of changes in the past couple of months. As I mentioned before, I underwent weight loss surgery in late October. In preparation for that and because I had gotten the word that I may no longer need the medication, I slowly, over 2 months, weened myself off the SSRI I have been taking for about 14 years for atypical migraine. The medication had a side effect of raising blood pressure, so I have also been on blood pressure meds for 14 years.
So - all this good, positive news and yet I am feeling a bit down and negative. I realized that not feeling good makes me feel cranky and I have to be careful not to dwell in that. But I came back to my job and don't like it much; I am finding things and people irritating and I don't want to be there all day.
I'm not excited for the holidays. I want to pull the blankets over me and wait until January when all the hoopla is over. Not like me at all! So I am hoping two things - One: that as I continue to heal my attitude will continue to improve and, two: that the SSRI I was taking for atypical migraine wasn't also keeping depression at bay without my realizing it!
6 days ago