It isn't just that I've lost that blogging feeling. I think I have lost my gusto. I hate to always go to the hormone/menopause place, but it appears to be the culprit for my malaise. After 10 years of hormonal ebbs and flows: hot flashes, insomnia, 13-20 day cycles, memory loss, moodiness, diminished sex drive and weight gain, it is now 14 months since my last period.
So where is the menopausal zest Margaret Meade?? I feel tired, unmotivated, sad and so even tempered you would think I was drugged - oh, except for the day at work when I went berserk.
I was told about 13 years ago that I should not take HRT for fear of aggravating a neurological issue I have - or had. Who knows after so many years if a "diagnosis of exclusion" is still present? I watched the Oprah show about bioidenticals and I am going to see if that is anything my doc can help with. I don't hold out to much hope because Kaiser is not exactly cutting edge.
It was irritating to watch Oprah and her wealthy guest discuss the issues when it came to dealing with doctors who tell you everything is "normal" by changing doctors until you find one who will work with you. Yeah, right. If you are insured at all, the likelihood that you can change doctors is slim to none. When you can afford to shop around, travel to wherever the specialists are and pay cash for your treatment and drugs - it is much more simple to solve your problems.
Complaining doesn't seem to help - so I'll look for new topics for my next posts...