It isn't just that I've lost that blogging feeling. I think I have lost my gusto. I hate to always go to the hormone/menopause place, but it appears to be the culprit for my malaise. After 10 years of hormonal ebbs and flows: hot flashes, insomnia, 13-20 day cycles, memory loss, moodiness, diminished sex drive and weight gain, it is now 14 months since my last period.
So where is the menopausal zest Margaret Meade?? I feel tired, unmotivated, sad and so even tempered you would think I was drugged - oh, except for the day at work when I went berserk.
I was told about 13 years ago that I should not take HRT for fear of aggravating a neurological issue I have - or had. Who knows after so many years if a "diagnosis of exclusion" is still present? I watched the Oprah show about bioidenticals and I am going to see if that is anything my doc can help with. I don't hold out to much hope because Kaiser is not exactly cutting edge.
It was irritating to watch Oprah and her wealthy guest discuss the issues when it came to dealing with doctors who tell you everything is "normal" by changing doctors until you find one who will work with you. Yeah, right. If you are insured at all, the likelihood that you can change doctors is slim to none. When you can afford to shop around, travel to wherever the specialists are and pay cash for your treatment and drugs - it is much more simple to solve your problems.
Complaining doesn't seem to help - so I'll look for new topics for my next posts...
5 comments:
You know, I think it's important to write about this kind of thing sometimes because so many people know nothing about the changes your body goes through. We know about the stereotypical things like hotflashes, but there's still a lot of mystery about that part of a woman's reproductive life.
Still - I wish complaining did help sometimes!
Gusto? I haven't had any of that in ages.
I have a friend who does the biodentical thing and it made a huge difference.
I know what you mean about Kaiser, but every once in a while they'll surprise you. Or you could ask around and find THE Dr. to go to in your area and bite the bullet and visit that Dr. But first make sure you get all your hormone levels, etc,. done at Kaiser and take the results with you--they have to give you your lab results.
Good luck.
Go for the hormone testing, but keep in mind there are a lot of other things that can cause lack of energy or a general feeling of malaise. Could be the season (fewer hours of sunlight), anemia, onset of type II diabetes, thyroid levels, hypertension (or its opposite) -- sometimes we women of a certain age assume a symptom is a side effect of menopause when it's a whole different problem entirely.
Maybe that is what's wrong with me! Everything seems to come down to hormones anymore. Sigh...
Now where did my fan go again?
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